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emily the tyrant!

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[08 Dec 2008|06:52pm]
i just read everything in this journal, from start to finish. it's really interesting, cause i didn't really remember what life was like back then. like, i don't even remember what it felt like to associate with a line in an elliott smith song enough to make a user name out of it.

mostly, though, i think it's like really fascinating how i begged for comments all the time, like i thought i was being original in passive-aggressively making a statement about a cultural phenomenon. it's also tres intressant how badly i handled the "anony mice" and other strange people from the st. mark's laguardia crowd commenting on my entries.

like, wtf?

aaaand i'd like to conclude by saying there's an entry from february 2004 which was not written by me, nor had i ever seen this entry until yesterday, and when i did see it i felt like harry potter was contacting me from a distant dimension, trying to convince me that my blonde friend is the antichrist, and THAT'S why she wants me to eat her poisoned sushi. and that there have been anonymous comments posted by my father, telling me he hates me. which i think is actually kind of refreshing -- not that my dad told me he hates me, but because there is such a thing as livejournal that allows him to tell me things like that without there being any reprecussions.

in other news, if anyone wants to buy me a vibrator for christmas, i will gladly pay the remainder of their college tuition. that is, i'll pay it in original artwork and shockingly accurate predictions/aphorisms.

uhh okay.

[24 Apr 2008|02:22pm]
"i'll get married... i'll get married..."

"i wanna mark your middle with my ocean..."

my future is bright.

[16 Jun 2006|09:27pm]
hello, to those of you who still have this journal on your friends list.

just thought i'd drop by and say a few words.


[22 Feb 2005|02:06pm]



_____glitter .




thank you.

4 love songs | divinatrix

[21 Feb 2005|09:47am]
well gosh, that was fun.

oh man.

call me. now.

things just got really, really bad. i'm sorry i ever bothered you. i don't know what to think, or feel, or say, or do. i really, really need to cry. i really, really need to die.
i did love you. i did. i love you. why is this happening?
you want a barbie,
i want a ken.
i want anything but what i'm holding--
her penis, her heart in my hand.
you want this barbie
why do i care?
i don't care about this, about you,
about what you want.
why am i doing this?
writing prose about a boy
a boy who cares.
why would i ever care
about a nice little boy?
you need a barbie
like i need a sock in the gut
so i'll just sit here
and play with my barbies--
barbie, skipper, kelly.
you'd fuck them all.
just let me play.

i'm so sorry. shut up, emily. goodbye. this is the end of this live journal. i can't do this anymore. i love you all. you will never see this. you'll never even know when i'm gone. i love you.

as if i would abandon this live journal.
oh man. when will this stop? i don't love you. i never did. you can go fall in a hole. because i'm okay.
1 love song | divinatrix

[21 Feb 2005|12:33am]
caliph is here and he's not leaving.

things are good.
3 love songs | divinatrix

[19 Feb 2005|08:32am]
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[17 Feb 2005|07:30pm]
i'm kind of glad that my homemade tattoos don't stay.

i just pierced that stupid piece of useless cartalige in my left ear. i can't find my camera, but i assure you, it looks good.
1 love song | divinatrix

[17 Feb 2005|06:50pm]
diet coke and cigarettes: my anti-food.

my own kitchen terrifies me.
9 love songs | divinatrix

[15 Feb 2005|07:17pm]
valentine's day = thumbs up.
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[13 Feb 2005|09:37am]
matzoh ball soup
rabbit fur mammoth boots
urban outfitters
good day.

getting sick
not seeing caliph
bad day.
2 love songs | divinatrix

[11 Feb 2005|02:41pm]
i just bought jeans.

cue applause.
2 love songs | divinatrix

[10 Feb 2005|06:20pm]
a w o l.
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[06 Feb 2005|08:59pm]
guess what i did today....
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[06 Feb 2005|12:00pm]
watching the land before time (one) and doing history homework. what a thing.
3 love songs | divinatrix

[05 Feb 2005|06:07pm]
i wish i still had the time, money, effort, and freedom to do cocaine.

i miss it more than i miss anything in life.

i know what those of you who know me are thinking, she's so stupid, she hasn't even done it that many times. she's just a fiending loser.

but it made me happy. and i can't get that back.

i'm a fat fuck, but somebody cares about me.

i finished my second book. if anybody would like to read it (hah), contact me at emilythetyrant@gmail.com and you will recieve it in email form.

♥ emily!
3 love songs | divinatrix

[04 Feb 2005|06:22pm]
my bed smells like caliph.
2 love songs | divinatrix

[01 Feb 2005|08:26pm]
it's amazing how much a boy can change one's life.

it's also amazing how i'm en-joy-ing this wrong. i'm already picking out breakup songs. i'm ridiculous.

and romeo wanted juliet

and juliet wanted romeo.

things have been okay in other areas of my life too, even though i'm still in rehab four days a week and i "relapsed" again on saturday.

break your stare, you might make your girlfriend nervous.

sex is okay.

1 love song | divinatrix

[31 Jan 2005|09:48am]
things are bad because i broke it to my parents that he's 18. ugh.
1 love song | divinatrix

[30 Jan 2005|09:04am]
i have an effing boyfriend.

gawd, i'm pathetic.

i had a drink the other day, i had a lot to say. you will come down soon too, you will come down too soon.
4 love songs | divinatrix

[28 Jan 2005|07:53pm]

p.s. this means a boyfriend-type thing.
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[25 Jan 2005|07:21pm]
new aim: a glitter heart
1 love song | divinatrix

[24 Jan 2005|12:35pm]
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[23 Jan 2005|01:20pm]
check out my new blog.

i'm making cookies today.
1 love song | divinatrix

[21 Jan 2005|07:09pm]
twisted fiend!
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